What Is Love

Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more. Just kidding. So what is love? The great question. The answer I've been seeking all this time. This extremely one sided feeling that is called love. A poison that runs through your veins. A weapon of mass destruction. A sickness that blinds you and renders you unable to judge and understand what is wrong and what is right. That's what I've been calling love for the past 2 years. A pessimistic view on love that I had for a long time.

After all the things that I got through I decided to approach love from another point of view. A more optimistic view. Love is something nice. Something romantic.A feeling that can lift you up and make every single day, a  new exciting adventure. It may be one sided and it may be hurtful for you sometimes but it is still love. You enjoy every moment of your life like it is your last. You smile like an idiot every time that person's name pops up in a conversation. He or she might never know that you love them. Maybe they already know that. Maybe they love you back and maybe they don't. If they don't you don't really care about it. Because your love gets you through the day. It makes every day a different one. You are confident and you walk like a badass or you might be extremely shy and walk with your head down. Whatever the case is, love is love and you can't stop it. It's this magical feeling where you feel that you are made for loving that person. You have this strong belief that you could make them happier than ever. Breaking every limit you've ever established without getting tired.  Love is a real life magic. Magic that no one can explain. Why our pupils dilate when we like someone? Why do we get jealous over stupid , little things? Why do we get possessive?  Yeah, chemicals releasing in our brains. Yet, I believe it is nicer to believe in magic sometimes. The chemicals might do their job but some feelings cannot be explained. How do you know that you know someone your whole life even though you met them just once or twice? What is this weird deja vu that we feel when we meet someone? Their face seems so familiar yet we've only met them once. We have so many in commont with them but this is the first time we actually had a conversation with them. Here comes the death part. Everyone is afraid of death. Does heaven exist? Is there something after death? Is there an after life? Who knows? No one. Just because no one knows we want to cherish every moment we have in this planet that we call earth. We want to have someone next to us. Someone we can count on. Someone we can grow old together. We are desperately trying to find our significant other. The puzzle piece that can complete us. I was trying too. I thought something else at some point. What if the puzzle piece doesn't complete me? Is that bad? No it is not. The puzzle piece can be the exact opposite of you yet you can still feel complete. The right thing needs the wrong one and darkness needs some light after all. People come and go. This is not bad either. I figured this out when my whole group of friends left me. I was alone and hurt but now I understand. People not always stay in your life and that's fine. They don't have to. People who come and go are a great way to be experienced and mature quicker. However, as I said above, we need someone to be in our lives. A stable someone that we can trust. We need to learn to let go of people who actually want to leave and embrace our loneliness. Knowing that someone else will come to free us from the isolation we are in. I'm not saying that we have to look for a savior. Some people just bring light with them and they can't help it. They are always smiling even though they are sad. They bring happiness and joy in every step. We also need to embrace these people. Hold onto them and never let them go. They are not gonna leave. You can trust me on this. They are gonna stay and show you the way to becoming a better version of yourself. Support you through every decision you make and be there in the darkest moments of your life. You also need to do the same. Support them and give guidance and advice when needed. Be there when they are down and be net to them when they are celebrating. Things might get rough but neither of you will let go of each other. Bad things might happen but after some time you will remember all the hardships and laugh while drinking a glass of wine. This is love. Yes, sometimes it can be a weapon of mass destruction but it can also be the bright light in the dark corners of  our minds. The drunk memories of a great moment. The radiant light shining in the dark. The hand that guides you through the rough terrain of life.

The one that will take the bullet for you and smile while doing it.